i cried
tears came down in torrents
i'm not sure why i cried.
cuz of the loss of 7000NTD?
cuz I thought my mom has prejudice against me?
cuz I thought my mom treats me unfairly,
that she is way too subjective, grumpy, immature, showing her own anxiety and pressure in the worst way...
or cuz my dad's blaze of anger
cuz i realized how great I had disappointed him and how great i was disappointed by'em
what i had accused my mom of may be what she had blamed me for
seriously,
we all suck so badly.
i hate to cry
minutes ago..
i cried so hard
i need support
thirst for it
i dont think i can guide my own way with the right attitude since then
disoriented
lost
help me
life should be driven by _____ .
?
2009年7月6日 星期一
furious
i'm so damned rubbishy.
it has been an year.
wtf am I doing now?
fuck you
damn it
i'm way too introverted
why cant i be more eager?
shouldnt i strive for my own future?
perhaps, i shouldn't blame you
i should be responsible for my own life
it's all about creating and seizing opportunities
and i suck awfully in this aspect
hopelessly furious
aint ppl there to hold me
moody
you have a strong impact on me
it agonizes me when I can't tell you how much I care'bout you.
in agony
it has been an year.
wtf am I doing now?
fuck you
damn it
i'm way too introverted
why cant i be more eager?
shouldnt i strive for my own future?
perhaps, i shouldn't blame you
i should be responsible for my own life
it's all about creating and seizing opportunities
and i suck awfully in this aspect
hopelessly furious
aint ppl there to hold me
moody
you have a strong impact on me
it agonizes me when I can't tell you how much I care'bout you.
in agony
2009年4月28日 星期二
What hurts the most?
What hurts the most
is being so close
but we have so less to say
stop saying it
prove it
I can't stand it
nor can I understand it
Am I expecting too much?
Alexander help me
let's date again
and plz protect my tofu
I'll say what I should say
is being so close
but we have so less to say
stop saying it
prove it
I can't stand it
nor can I understand it
Am I expecting too much?
Alexander help me
let's date again
and plz protect my tofu
I'll say what I should say
2009年4月4日 星期六
2009年2月25日 星期三
2009年2月3日 星期二
I am so gonna smack myself
dang it
I really hate the way I'm living now
especially yesterday
spending a day exterminating that red ribbon,
letting all stuff undone,
my room still horrifying, might mess up my entire life if a friend of mine sight it
I didn't take a bath diligently, that's a real shame, like things my bro does
so many goals yet fulfilled: to finish up Pride and Prejudice, Death of the Salesman, God Father, Driver's license, a weaving gift, Bean Flower's gift, several novels, biking....
I was no doubt ruining my winter vacation
not to mention my health
most of all
I didnt pay great effort contacting with my friends
that made me so ashamed of myself
what was I doing
living in my own fantasy, sloppily
I wonder how inferior I am feeling now
shame on me
past, fantasy, fiction...
never living at present
dont think Master Ooway can help me
maybe a shower right away will help
help me.
I really hate the way I'm living now
especially yesterday
spending a day exterminating that red ribbon,
letting all stuff undone,
my room still horrifying, might mess up my entire life if a friend of mine sight it
I didn't take a bath diligently, that's a real shame, like things my bro does
so many goals yet fulfilled: to finish up Pride and Prejudice, Death of the Salesman, God Father, Driver's license, a weaving gift, Bean Flower's gift, several novels, biking....
I was no doubt ruining my winter vacation
not to mention my health
most of all
I didnt pay great effort contacting with my friends
that made me so ashamed of myself
what was I doing
living in my own fantasy, sloppily
I wonder how inferior I am feeling now
shame on me
past, fantasy, fiction...
never living at present
dont think Master Ooway can help me
maybe a shower right away will help
help me.
2009年1月20日 星期二
killing me
i want to be talented, holistic
good at everything
the fact is that i'm real rubbish
always living in the past
when can I learn to let go of them
waiting like an utter moron
blaming for their cruelties and coolnesses
simultaneously, suffering
in deep agony and it just happens on and on
on the edge of collapse
shattered already
still waiting for your reply like an idiot
at least it had some positive impacts
or perhaps,
torture
i dont think that i can stand it anymore
good at everything
sports, art, misic and academic
also "keeping an infectious up-beat spirit"
and willing to give my time and energy
the fact is that i'm real rubbish
always living in the past
when can I learn to let go of them
waiting like an utter moron
blaming for their cruelties and coolnesses
simultaneously, suffering
in deep agony and it just happens on and on
on the edge of collapse
shattered already
still waiting for your reply like an idiot
at least it had some positive impacts
or perhaps,
torture
i dont think that i can stand it anymore
2009年1月16日 星期五
我真的覺得我快要死了
我有可能暴斃 希望不會 爸媽我愛你們 可是我現在好憤世嫉俗 好恨我自己 把自己拖到這種泥淖裡 我現在呼吸不順 真的很恐慌 我還這麼年輕 我有本錢嗎？ 好誇張 我覺得好孤單 我不想再經歷這種夜了
不敢想像明天會變成什麼樣子
為什麼我要這樣糟蹋自己
我會後悔
到底什麼時候才會
懂得
2009年1月13日 星期二
i'm accelerating it
I wanna use profanity now...
but someone once stated that * likes girls with 氣質
l then made myself a dummy
this onpening sucks
like Tong-Ann Sytwu
she sucks
I hate her
hate her so much
damn her
but someone once stated that * likes girls with 氣質
l then made myself a dummy
this onpening sucks
like Tong-Ann Sytwu
she sucks
I hate her
hate her so much
damn her
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