我想你們在世界上某個角落

油頭、Gogo，你們還在吧？
你們不在Heavy身旁時，他總是食不下嚥打了個噴嚏就揚長而去。
食物大半都留給nocat跟那相信你們已可獨立自主日漸發福的媽媽了
信誓旦旦地說要對你們負責，但你們在哪？

我好想念你們手足三個一齊亮相的時光（雖然偶爾會有一個遲到，但另外兩個都會好無奈無私地退一步、讓遲到大王吃）
想念吃完的你們，各自自在地在我面前做自己的事，或休息打盹、或玩弄身邊任何可玩之物（鐵絲、樹枝、昆蟲）
想念我們（其實只有我）的難分難捨，蚊子都快吸飽了還是想一直看著你們三個小野喵－從六月小老鼠大小長到現在六個月大的三位寶貝。

我不能用這些美好的回憶來欺騙自己其實是元兇的事實
你們會感冒，應該是因為去了康廷；你們會去康廷，則是我帶你們去的。
不經過當事貓的同意，我決定了你們的結紮大權，以為這樣對你們最好。
但我深深深深深深的後悔了.....
我甚至再也看不到你們了，再也做不了什麼來幫助你們




，我說這幾個禮拜。
你們會再出現吧？




罪惡不捨悔恨的我真的好想想想念你們
你們的弟弟/哥哥一定更想你們
那孤單的背影有如殺千刀般痛
那噴嚏聲有如悲鳴般的痛心






我到底做了什麼.................................

it's really about.....

being thoughtful and smart

how can i blame a person for not thinking the way i do?
it is selfish thinking that my POV is unquestionable
yes, think
think harder
think more


remember how i hated cats before i met Guli?
i scared cats away with disgust when they came into sight
i thought they were devils cursing and gazing upon us

then, i met Hegel

and his cat, Guli, with no fondness for him


it was not until two or three months did i started to bond with him, appreciate, cherish him and find great bliss from his company
(and of course, a sense of security or being needed)


separated
great ___

i met three other cute kittens and their mom

a light rekindled



to be continued