2009年2月3日 星期二

I am so gonna smack myself

dang it
I really hate the way I'm living now
especially yesterday

spending a day exterminating that red ribbon,
letting all stuff undone,
my room still horrifying, might mess up my entire life if a friend of mine sight it
I didn't take a bath diligently, that's a real shame, like things my bro does
so many goals yet fulfilled: to finish up Pride and Prejudice, Death of the Salesman, God Father, Driver's license, a weaving gift, Bean Flower's gift, several novels, biking....
I was no doubt ruining my winter vacation
not to mention my health

most of all
I didnt pay great effort contacting with my friends
that made me so ashamed of myself
what was I doing
living in my own fantasy, sloppily
I wonder how inferior I am feeling now
shame on me

past, fantasy, fiction...
never living at present

dont think Master Ooway can help me

maybe a shower right away will help



help me.

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